Lately I’ve been both reading and writing a lot, and I’ve decided to start posting some of my musings here for a variety of reasons.
Firstly, my chosen career in medicine is thus far a complete failure, and my mind therefore needs to be occupied with other intellectual pursuits. I feel somewhat deprived of opportunities to express myself in an articulate and meaningful manner, yet this contemporary form of journalism provides me with just that, right?
Finally, I bought myself a Mac, and unlike my former PC, the ‘h’ key doesn’t fly off the keyboard every time I hit it. Blogging also seems like one of the idealistic things done by everyone who owns a Mac.
I considered starting a new blog, since writing about things that actually matter doesn’t exactly follow in the theme of this blog’s previous life. Then I realised that people change, people develop. Why shouldn’t my blog reflect that? Until now, I’ve posted mainly photographs. That’s easy for me. Writing something of meaning and structure poses more of a challenge, one from which I hope that I can learn something.
I rode to my first day of training for my new job this morning, in pouring rain, listening to this.
I bought a Kindle. I hate myself for how much I love it.
My home for the day
I’m feeling motivated today. It’s a good job really, since GAMSAT is next week. Oh god oh god.
It’s ok. I’m at peace with my impending failure, and I feel great about going to Ireland in March to resit. Sort of.
I’ve spent so long in this library. I know that the doors on the third floor say ‘Pull’, but that actually you can push or pull them. I know where all the hidden-behind-bookcase plug sockets are. I know all.
This is the most important thing to me at the moment.
I have a new job. I’ll be so sad to leave, but happy to be leaving the hardest job I’ve ever done.
I understand vectors, a little bit.
In six weeks, my exams will be done.
To free time.
//. / // . To baking, sewing, printing.
// //../ /////. /-/Watching The 100 without feeling guilty.
//To making journeys.//
////. / /// // /. ///// To meeting a friend I haven’t yet met.
// // //./// ///. // And in (less than) one year, being somewhere I haven’t yet been.
*this is life for now.
*snaps from my 24th birthday last week. I am blessed to have such wonderful family and friends.
I’ve sacrificed my usual pre-work early night in the name of sorting out my life. I’m sure I won’t regret it at 6am tomorrow. Ha.
Those times when your head gets so fuzzy and full that you actually think it might burst: that’s what this afternoon was like.
I needed these extra couple of hours to tidy up my home, do yoga, write, refocus.
//job prospects//exams//study//yoga//running//self//eat green//
*a very big watermelon
*some photos from our impromptu trip to Brean last week
How great it is to be eating a lunch mainly from my garden.
This morning has been all about this song , yoga, and learning to answer 30-second maths questions. Please let this be the last time I sit the UKCAT. Let the gods of medical school have mercy this year.
It’s 6:00 and I’ve already been for a run and showered. Now I’m going to work for the morning and then coming home for an afternoon of Physics and Maths. I feel weirdly good about all this.
Mornings really are the best.
*Highbury Park, Birmingham, at 5:15 this morning
Some snaps from the Tour de Yorkshire last weekend.
I was even-more-proud-than-usual to be from Yorkshire last weekend. Smiles all round. We did ourselves proud.